bluffing as usual

It's 2008 December 31st.aka New Year's Eve.
I'm on the fucking bridge now,and thinking about to jump off.

While I was driving on the bridge,I heard a little voice in my head.
It's like the Universe give me a sign,or singal,whatever.
And so I decided to follow the sign.You give and I take,fair enough.
I mean,Come on.It's Universe.How can you resist the Universe?
We can't never ever ever resist the Universe,right?right?
So I pull over,stop the car.And then turn the music out loud.
And don't think I'm bluffing.Dude,it's New Year's Eve.
Everybody park their car on the bridge to see that freaking stupid fireworks.
Except me,of course.

I walked out the car.And I saw lots of crazy people shouting and laughing.
Seriously,to me,they looks like fucking psycho.
They standing in the bloody freezeing wind for like 30 or 40 minutes,just to see a freaking fireworks.
Dude,don't you think it's like the most crappy activity than ever?

Alright,let's cut the crap.
I know you don't care those things much,do you?
The only thing about me that you might wanna know is like:
Option A :Can you explain why do you want to jump off the bridge?
Or maybe like:
Option B:Why chose the New Year's Eve to jump off the bridge?
See?Just like this.The only thing people care about is why here or why today.

So,can I explain why I want to jump off the bridge on New Year's Eve?
Of course I can!I'm not a bloody idiot.(although most of people thinks I am)
The reason that I want to jump off are:
1 The world is sick.
2 Too many dirty politicians.
3 Bad economic.
4 Global warming.
5 Stupid media control people's mind.
Blah....Blah....Blah....
Yeah,you know now I'm bluffing.That's totally not true.
The Truth is:
1 I'm a loser.
2 I'm a loser.
3 I'm a loser.